Worlds Apart.

We are worlds apart. Trying to make sense of what we have become. Bridges to cross and mountains to climb. We were young and full of dreams. Looking at the world from a point that made us feel invincible. Growing up is hard and frustrating. Looking back at those younger days. And now here we are a little older and a little wiser and yet if I had a chance to go back I would not change a thing. Everything that happened was a beautiful memory and damn it was awesome.

I sometimes find myself thinking of those days and grinning at the thought of all the stupid things we did. Not a worry in the world. Just living in the moment. There are scars that run deep and close to my heart but there is nothing to hide. As time passed wounds heals even the scars slowly fade away and became a thing of the past. We took a leap in faith and the hope and strength of a better tomorrow are what keeps us going. Somewhere along the way, we saw something no one else did and we stuck to it. The bigger picture. Believing in something, no hesitation or doubt just a feeling so strong. Whatever it was we always found a way back to it.

And there are nights we wake up full of fear that we don't know what we are suppose to do. But we have traveled hard and far to get to where we are. Pushing ourselves forward, one step at a time. We are stronger and no fear we can't fight. Seeing ourselves in a brighter light when no one else does. 

The Architect

I have always been the type of person who wanted quick results and that is not always the best thing. Sometimes you need to be patient and take it slow and commit to the cause. We tend to forget what we are trying to achieve when are so blindsided by our lack of perseverance. Giving up too soon when we could have made it if we had just hustled a little longer. Take away the happiness factor and then we seem to hate it. Forgetting why we even started it off in the first place. In moments like this, we need to look back and recall why we are doing what we are.

Look at the bigger picture and remember you are the architect and only you can choose how to design the structure of your life. It's simple yet complicated. How do we take the steps and calculate when we don't even know what the end product should look like? So first thing first, try projecting your end goal it doesn't have to be precise you just need a rough idea of what you want and the rest will follow. Take some time to do that. Jumping into something without a plan usually backfires. What I like to do is write it down and make steps or pointers so I know I am on the right track. And of course, there are some unforeseen factors that may come along.  You might feel down and low but that's where you adapt and learn. For me, one of the best parts of life is the triumph over struggles. Innovate and experiment because we are still young, so don't let a few setbacks make you feel like it's the end. Cherish the worst of times as you do the best of times because you end up learning more from them and you tend to see how strong you really are. You are the main character of your life and you always come out STRONGER.

Outside The Safe Zone Into The Abyss(Don't be afraid)

There will be a point in life when you have to make decisions that you are not going to be happy to make. But this is a change that you know will be good for you in the long run. You keep asking yourself how do you make it? Well, I have been contemplating for a long time when this day would come. And I know it's gonna a rough couple of months to follow letting go of something that you love but you know that it's not working out. Some people are so afraid to stop doing something because they believe that they are giving up on their dreams and maybe a past. We don't realize how holding on to something which is not meant to be for so long just makes it toxic and you end up hating it. So I believe when the time is right and you have that gut feeling that it's time to move on to a new chapter. It's time to try to step out of your comfort zone and just go for it. Because you will never know what really makes you happy until you try it. And it may take week, months or even years but the thing about life is you have the ability to do what you want if you are not afraid to. I recently went to an amusement park with my siblings and to be honest I was not the most enthusiastic about it but there I was having the time of my life. It was my first time on a rollercoaster and damn I was shitting my pants even before it started. To my surprise it was amazing, screaming my lungs out just felt so good. My mind was just clear for a while I didn't think of anything else in the world just felt the thrill of the moment. So what I am trying to say is you will never know how it feels like without giving it a try, don't be afraid to stand out or be different it's what makes us all special in our own way. What's life without a little experimentation and few losses and struggles. I'd say boring and you've not lived enough xD.

Something Special in all the Chaos.

    Lately, I have been struggling to get my life together. Trying to get back on track not knowing what comes next. Pretending that everything will work out. Maybe I'm being naive, unable to accept reality. You are long gone and things are not working like we imagined. We are having struggles of our own. And it's not easy to help each other when our paths are diverging. Can't assure each other like we used to. We have to make these decisions on our own. Big or small. Maybe one day we will find a way but as of now, it's just all over the place. And the sad truth is we both know and it's taking a toll. Can't say it out loud holding on to a string of hope, a memory, a feeling. Whatever it is will it fade with time? Or is it set in stone? That we can't decide and only time will tell.

      The tides are coming and the storm is brewing. Can we be the one out of those millions? All those plans and dreams we have yet to achieve. I know what I want but the picture was so much clearer with you in it. I am still strong but I felt stronger with you. And I know you felt the same way too. There are certain things I regret and that I cannot change. See me for who I am and not what they say. In the end, we are both humans and make mistakes. If there is someone who knows me best I'd say it's you. You have seen me through both my best and worst of times and I have yours. And I was always ready to do something stupid so I could make memories with you. Because I know it would be worth it. And I hope you felt the same way too. I struggle to communicate in a day to day basis but you know that's just me holding my emotions until they erupt. I'm sure you know it too well unlike any other. Always know there is a place in my heart that will always be yours no matter what. I have said a lot and maybe too much but I just had to because I needed to. Whatever happens between us you will always be cherished because you were the light in all my darkness.

P.s- Whenever I think of a happy moment you were there.