Lately, I have been struggling to get my life together. Trying to get back on track not knowing what comes next. Pretending that everything will work out. Maybe I'm being naive, unable to accept reality. You are long gone and things are not working like we imagined. We are having struggles of our own. And it's not easy to help each other when our paths are diverging. Can't assure each other like we used to. We have to make these decisions on our own. Big or small. Maybe one day we will find a way but as of now, it's just all over the place. And the sad truth is we both know and it's taking a toll. Can't say it out loud holding on to a string of hope, a memory, a feeling. Whatever it is will it fade with time? Or is it set in stone? That we can't decide and only time will tell.
The tides are coming and the storm is brewing. Can we be the one out of those millions? All those plans and dreams we have yet to achieve. I know what I want but the picture was so much clearer with you in it. I am still strong but I felt stronger with you. And I know you felt the same way too. There are certain things I regret and that I cannot change. See me for who I am and not what they say. In the end, we are both humans and make mistakes. If there is someone who knows me best I'd say it's you. You have seen me through both my best and worst of times and I have yours. And I was always ready to do something stupid so I could make memories with you. Because I know it would be worth it. And I hope you felt the same way too. I struggle to communicate in a day to day basis but you know that's just me holding my emotions until they erupt. I'm sure you know it too well unlike any other. Always know there is a place in my heart that will always be yours no matter what. I have said a lot and maybe too much but I just had to because I needed to. Whatever happens between us you will always be cherished because you were the light in all my darkness.
P.s- Whenever I think of a happy moment you were there.
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